Baby E has jaundice.
I noticed that her eyes were a bit off colour when we brought her home. It wasn’t a bright white around the pupil but more of a yellowygrey. I couldn’t check properly though because she only woke up for a short time and that was usually at night when it was too dark to check. Then J said that she looked a bit yellow when she screamed but I said that’s probably coz her face was all scrounged up and it was cutting blood flow. I was wrong.
We had her one week check up yesterday and as soon we walked in the doc said she would check about the jaundice and I was like ‘What jaundice?’ Clearly the signs were quite obvious and I just couldn’t read it. Apparently it’s quite common and usually clears within a few days but breastfeeding can prolong the jaundice to two or three weeks.
We had to take her downstairs to the lab for a blood test. If you have never seen blood being drawn from a baby consider yourself lucky. The nurse bent her wrist at an impossible angle and I was sure that I was going to hear a snap. Then she took the tiniest needle and poked the front of her wrist. Then she poked her again. And again. And again. I was just about to lose my shit when I saw a tiny drop of blood come out. Thats when the nurse explained that the veins are so tiny that its difficult to get the needle inside on the first try. Boy oh boy did she scream. My heart was breaking. I couldn’t cry though because A was there also and I didnt want to freak her out. They took very little blood but the whole process felt like it took an hour. It was probably less than five minutes. She fell asleep afterwards so clearly the trauma was more for us as parents.
The doc called half an hour later with the results and said the jaundice level is low enough that we don’t need to worry. It will clear soon enough. I still find myself manically staring into her eyes whenever she looks at me though to check if her eyes look brighter. I am resisting googling because I know I will just freak out. So for now I am patiently waiting for a non red and yellow baby.