Ok, it didn’t actually fall off but it was touch and go for a while there. I’m pretty sure I turned into an ice block though.
Background: My daughter is 9 days old. She’s not even double digits yet! How strange and wonderful to be so new. Anyway, I digress. I went into this baby situation determined to breastfeed but willing to compromise for my sanity. To say I didn’t love it the first time around would be a huge understatement. This time I read up as much as I could, got all the gadgets and felt more mentally and emotionally prepared.
She was born on Wednesday morning and latched on really well within the first hour. Success! However, by the evening she was clearly needing more than I was providing. I know the rule is that your body provides exactly what baby needs but I think I can safely say that after two hours of sucking me dry and still crying that she was not satisfied with the menu on offer. I promised myself and my husband that should I be in this position (husbands aren’t allowed to stay so I was alone) that I would ask for help. So I did. The nurse provided me with 50ml of formula and the little tiny tot drank half then passed out into a contented sleep. And the world didn’t end. I ended up giving her one formula feed a day until my milk came in. She was full. I was sane. We were all happy.
Now she is exclusively breastfed. The doc suggested I give her 5ml of water a day to get her used to the taste of water. I have decided not to for now though because she is drinking plenty of milk. (she gained 500g in a week. The expected minimum is 150g. I joke that I make full cream milk. Lol! ) I may start to introduce water soon though as we are headed towards summer which can get really crazy humid.
Latching has been pretty good with her usually drinking until she falls asleep. Lately though she’s been drinking a bit strangely from my right side. She starts with a great latch then slides down until just the nipple is in her mouth. This hurts like CRAZY! It’s like there are blades in my nipple that saw back and forth as she drinks. Not fun at all. I now keep unlatching and relatching her when this happens with reasonable success. I also realised that I wasnt holding her with her tummy turned towards me which was probably uncomfortable.
I don’t know what happened this morning but from 1:30-5:40am she drank, then burped then cried for more milk and drank again. Con-tin-u-ously!!!! I lost track of all sense of time until I heard the rooster crowing outside. It was very strange. She was literally stuck to my boobs but she was so unhappy. She was gulping the milk and I could hear how much air was going in at the same time. Then she would choke and cry but still fight for more even though she needed to be winded. It wasn’t a fun time. She eventually fell asleep from sheer exhaustion. At that point my nipples were swollen and so tender that it hurt to even have the breastpad touching it. I was surprised my right nipple was still attached at that point. Then as if we (my husband was up with me the whole time helping to burp her or console her. I love that man) hadn’t had a rough enough night…an hour after we fell asleep the shivers hit. I was wondering when it would happen but had forgotten how terrible it felt. I woke in a shock feeling as if I had been doused in iced water. I was FREEZING. My whole body was clenched and I couldn’t move. I called out to my husband between chattering teeth to please wrap me in the blanket. He was so exhausted I don’t think it registered what was going on because it was so hot last night. I had to ask a few times for him to realise something was wrong. He managed to wrap me up and slip some warm pajama pants over my shorts. This was followed by my winter flannel gown, fleece blanket, duvet and him. What a terrible feeling. I couldn’t stop shaking. It felt as though I was continuously being doused in freezing cold water. It must-have only lasted half an hour but it felt like forever.I eventually fell asleep and woke up with my clothes sweat soaked and boiling hot. But alive.
Aaaaaaaaand that was my morning. Fingers crossed for a less eventful time tonight
Any and all tips or tricks on breastfeeding or latching are most welcome